Self?

What am I?
Just a silly sad girl.
No matter how I try,
life slaps me and I swirl.

Just a silly sad girl
full of bruises and scrapes,
life slaps me and I swirl
into the open arms of an ape.

Full of bruises and scrapes,
I waltz like a twister
into the open arms of an ape.
“You’re a piece of shit, sir.”

I waltz like a twister,
holding you in no regard.
“You’re a piece of shit, sir.”
I am my own guard.

Holding you in no regard,
no matter how I try…
I am my own guard.
What am I?

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Sad Girl’s Love Song (Sylvia Plath Imitation)

I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead,

I lift swollen lids and nothing is right, again.

(I wish I made you up inside my head.)

 

The stars are marching in formation, blue and red,

And lovely blackness waltzes in,

I shut my eyes, and all the world drops dead.

 

I love how you bewitched me into bed,

And sung me awe-struck, kissed me back to sane.

(I wish I made you up inside my head.)

 

Seraphs fall from the sky, heaven’s light wanes.

Exodus of hateful foolish men.

I shut my eyes, and all the world drops, dead.

 

I know you’ll return, like you said.

I grow cold and whisper your name.

(I wish I made you up, inside my head.)

 

 

I couldn’t have loved any in your stead.

When spring comes, we’ll begin again.

I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead,

(I think I made you up inside my head.)

Medicated

My mind was full of things and sounds untold,
for months I hid myself away from light.
“She’s young, not bright, a foolish bird, but bold.”
My hands will block my hopeful eyes from sight.

I long to hear the golden bells in song.
The night has lasted long and hopeless dark
has conquered sight, made speech a hiss, so wrong.
The tune has come to still, a dead mute lark.

To touch, to grieve, this pain it lasts too long.
Like anguished screams this dark surrounds us all.
“Just stop, sit down, relax, rip that glass bong.”
My eyes are red but now I don’t feel small.

Man, all I need is more cool ranch cheese chips.
But first, lemme just take a few more rips.